The longer I'm not creative, the more time I spend away from expressing myself in that way, the more I feel a sense of loss. Even though I was far from the mood, I forced myself to get back "out there" and do something. After all, this year is supposed to be the year I reach out of my comfort zone and explore different avenues, possibilities, and opportunities.
Last week, I was talking to some theater students after class, telling them how I missed being on the stage. They told me to check out the theater department and try to get involved again (simple, and yet, it was something I had shied away from). Right after class, I decided to go to our theater department's website. I read through various profiles and chose one professor that I could talk to. I wasn't entirely sure what the discussion was going to be about. I mean, I had some general ideas about getting back on stage, maybe seeing my play produced professionally, etc., but the plan was just to move forward...with anything creative. We did meet for lunch just a few days later, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for an upcoming production of my work. But really, it just felt good to "talk theater" again.
Tonight was no different. I had the privilege of driving a visiting professor to dinner. His specialization is in both Augusto Boal's Theatre of the Oppressed and in LGBT young adult lit. The connection makes perfect sense, but it is not one I had previously made. I have taught Boal to my underclassmen before, and on separate occasions I have taught LGBT drama and film. What excited me is that there is still room for exploration on the stage that has yet to be discovered. Why do we have films, TV shows, and plays about the LGBT community but little, if any, that deal directly with, and feature, the youth? Simply put, it's the controversy that surrounds this subject matter. It's alive and well. But the possibilities...the possibilities are, too.
I don't know what will come out of either of these meetings. What I do know is that the wall is finally beginning to budge.